Wednesday, November 25, 2009

more funny...

just cause they are on my playlist eternally....

it's funny...

Will showed me this tonight and I think it's rather funny...(they're puppets, puppets are supposed to be funny...)

Saturday, November 14, 2009

the wasteland

Who is the third who walks always beside you?
When I count, there are only you and I together 360
But when I look ahead up the white road
There is always another one walking beside you
Gliding wrapt in a brown mantle, hooded
I do not know whether a man or a woman
—But who is that on the other side of you? 365

from the wasteland by t.s. eliot

Still going through this poem, line by line and trying to grasp it all. I will implore my dear friend, Katie, to help me with what I cannot understand. I do know that there are many references to lines from the Bible and also many famous romantic interludes...I am fascinated and was prompted to read this by a schizophrenic I recently engaged outside of work on my lunch break. God works in many mysterious ways and gives me so many lessons to learn, always in passing I can dismiss the initial intention, but after looking back, then the lesson is revealed.


Wednesday, November 11, 2009

love this project....

this is so funny...i almost peed!

Thinking of Having Kids?
Do This 10 Step Program First

Lesson 1
Before you finally go ahead and have children, find a couple who already are parents and berate them about their...
1. Methods of discipline
2. Lack of patience
3. Appallingly low tolerance levels
4. Allowing their children to run wild
5. Suggest ways in which they might improve their child's breastfeeding, sleep habits, toilet training, table manners, and overall behavior.
Enjoy it because it will be the last time in your life you will have all the answers.
Lesson 2
A really good way to discover how the nights might feel...
1. Get home from work and immediately begin walking around the living room from 5pm to 10pm carrying a wet bag weighing approx. 8-12 pounds, with a radio turned to static (or some other obnoxious sound) playing loudly.
2. At 10pm, put the bag down gently, set the alarm for midnight, and go to sleep.
3. Get up at midnight and walk around the living room again, with the bag, until 1am.
4. Set alarm for 3am.
5. As you can't get back to sleep, get up at 2am and watch an infomercial.
6. Go to bed at 2:45.
7. Get up at 3am when alarm goes off.
8. Sing songs quietly in the dark until 4am.
9. Get up. Make breakfast. Get ready for work and go to work (work hard and be productive.)
Repeat steps 1-9 each night. Keep this up for 3-5 years. Look cheerful and together.
Lesson 3
Can you stand the mess children make? To find out...
1. Smear peanut butter onto the sofa and jam onto the curtains.
2. Hide a piece of raw chicken behind the stereo and leave it there all summer.
3. Stick your fingers in the flower bed.
4. Then rub them on the clean walls.
5. Take your favorite book, photo album, etc. Wreck it.
6. Spill milk on your new pillows. Cover the stains with crayons. How does that look?
Lesson 4
Dressing small children is not as easy as it seems.
1. Buy an octopus and a small bag made out of loose mesh.
2. Attempt to put the octopus in the bag so that none of the arms hang out.
Time allowed for this- all morning.
Lesson 5
Forget the BMW and buy a mini-van. And don't think that you can leave it out in the driveway spotless and shining. Family cars don't look like that.
1. Buy a chocolate ice cream cone and put it in the glove compartment. Leave it there.
2. Get a dime. Stick it in the CD player.
3. Take a family size package of chocolate cookies. Mash them into the back seat. Sprinkle Cheerios all over the floor, them smash them with your foot.
4. Run a garden rake along both sides of the car.
Lesson 6
Go to the grocery store. Take the closest thing you can find to a pre-school child. (A full-grown goat is an excellent choice). If you intend to have more than one child, then definitely take more than one goat. Buy your week's groceries without letting the goats out of your sight. Pay for everything the goats eat or destroy. Until you can easily accomplish this, do not even contemplate having children.
Lesson 7
1. Hollow out a melon.
2. Make a small hole in the side.
3. Suspend it from the ceiling and swing it from side to side.
4. Now get a bowl of soggy Cheerios and attempt to spoon them into the swaying melon by pretending to be an airplane.
5. Continue until half the Cheerios are gone.
6. Tip half into your lap. The other half, just throw up in the air.
You are now ready to feed a 9 month-old baby.
Lesson 8
Learn the names of every character from all shows on PBS, the Disney Channel and Noggin. Watch nothing else on TV but shows from these channels for at least 5 years. (I know, you're thinking "what is Noggin?") Exactly the point.
Lesson 9
Make a recording of Fran Drescher saying 'mommy' repeatedly. (Important: no more than a four second delay between each 'mommy'; occasional crescendo to the level of supersonic jet is required). Play this tape in your car everywhere you go for the next four years. You are now ready to take a long trip with a toddler.
Lesson 10
Start talking to an adult of your choice. Have someone else continually tug on your skirt hem, shirt sleeve, or elbow while playing the 'mommy' tape made from lesson 9 above. You are now ready to have a conversation with an adult while there is a child in the room.
So, I find a link to a super sweet bandana dress you can make for little people on Sew Mama Sew, which is a fantastic sewing site that I adore and also found Joy's Hope, another sewing site with a hilarious blog! The above 10 step program is from it and when I read it, I seriously laughed until I cried!! Thanks, Joy's Hope! Also, Joy has great ideas and is teaching a class on making scarves starting now..and it goes week by week! her pitch for all of this is "get your sewing machine out of the closet and sew!" which is what I plan on doing for the next 7 weeks before Christmas cos I am a broke mom who needs to make about 5 million gifts...all for no money :)
I'll let you know how quickly old levi's turn into handbags...

Saturday, October 17, 2009

today i am in love with...

the FIRS songs posted this about love when I check what new music my friends have been up to!!! I love Funeral PTS 1&2 and Ambient One..excited about a full length album! Also, All the Day Holiday & Josh Ritter have both been heavy in my playlist this week...some friends mentioned an old tv show with Shia in it, so I'm gonna check youtube today for clips...also, tree is turning out well and pumpkins are all dry and ready for some pulp clay!!As soon as I get some clay drying, I'll post the process..I know you can't wait, AS!!
Last night, I gathered with a group of good friends who I love very dearly and had some yummy snacks & great company! A couple of them are leaving for tour for about a month and even when I think of it this morning, I feel excited for them and also excited for those still here...but I can't help knowing that I will miss them while they travel. There is a connection between us that feels closer than most friendships I have ever had, that is special and lasting and it makes me feel very in love and very loved. Thank you God for bringing us all together and showing us what love is...true love ways.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

god gave rocknroll to you...
"sounds eerie and cool like walking through a graveyard in October all by your lonesome" -caimyn
I love that!
i am in love with future trends/hummingbird choir split that I just listened to and put on my ipod!!! also, josh ritter- can't get enough! strawberry pop tarts, cos they are so delicious! matt's rendering of wild talents on our myspace page, trusting in the unseen, it's how i'm keepin the faith (insert keyboard solo from "pressure" here) 1984 by Van Halen cos Diamond Dave has delicious vocal capacity!! my pal, AS, cos she lives on a farm and makes yummy food with the harvest from it! my pal, LPH, cos I just can't get enough of her! God's plan for me has me always satisfied, I never thirst, I don't have to live in remorse or worry or morbid reflection...Mocha has fleas and is not dting and that is such great news! I love you!

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

today i am in love with...

You! and Javelins! and my new record player! dancing to Carole King with the greatest gal ever- little Miss Hannah! and painting nails half pink! and excitement for Sarah coming over! and Halloween- it's coming! black cats and bats and rats- OH MY!! finding bags of halllllooowweeenn presents from beautiful , girls who are good friends! my pals! a devotional every morning made just right for me like porridge in bowls and bears chasing the grizzly man...not eating meat so my brain doesn't turn into a holey sponge! dissension! LPH!!! a great day! a groovy job! an awesome life! man, am i ever in love! God gives me the very best of everything and I haven't stepped foot in Nordstrom's! ah, love! my dreams aren't this sweet!

Thursday, September 10, 2009

today is...

my 4th wedding anniversary! so glad to still be so in love...i have always thought of MDH as my John Lennon and of course, I am his Yoko. When I was young, I used to cry whenever I would see Yoko after John's death. I felt so much pain in her eyes. Now, I do not cry for her because she is a strong woman. John Lennon said he was half until he met her, then he became whole through their love. Isn't that beautiful? I am so blessed to be so in love with a man I love so unconditionally.( I think he may love me that way, too!) Then I remember I am human and never treat anyone as well as I should always. Today is not so special because it is the day we got married because our hearts became one long before that, but it is special in that it is the day I committed myself to him and he to I as a family with our son, William. That we shall triumph over darkness and weather all storms together. We will be each others lighthouse, we will be each others Jack and Sally, no matter what comes along.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

he makes me feel sad

my first day...

at starbucks anditwasnice. the people are very pleasant and i did my orientation, filling out a lot of forms and reading manuals. They made me2 different pots of french press coffee- one sumatra, one anniversary blend, both faves of mine, but very distinctly different. I am super-charged! caffeinated! but also quite sleepy,as I stayed up late making t-shirts with my friends and then watching a documentary on Charlie. So, yesterday, I did not do my devotional. I read it this morning and it was about rest and relaxation- i slept yesterday!! :) Today, the gospel is risky business. Exactly what our potluck talked about last night- God doesn't give us this material security. Instead, he offers faith...which begins, in a sense, where reason ends.
God's security begins when we start loving him with our whole heart, our whole mind, our whole soul- and our neighbor as ourselves.
Today, I am so in love with new friends, getting to know them, accepting then and loving them without question! having them in my life feels good! learning to be giving without expectation, loving my neighbor as myself, heck, loving me!!! the world is brand new, i feel like a little kid with new eyes to seeeeee!there is this beauty in everything..and phenomenal hope!

Sunday, September 6, 2009

the way the truth and the life

therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to his neighbor, for we are all members of one body. in your anger do not sin. Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold. He who has been stealing must steal no longer, but must work, doing something useful with his own hands, that he may have something to share with those in need.
Ephesians 25

Saturday, September 5, 2009

skinny legs and all

I love this book! no idea it was made into a movie...hope it is better then even cowgirls get the blues...uma thurman is a deep sea urchin.

i just love fire engines!

Thursday, September 3, 2009

the father of paranormal studies

The "Wild Talents" thesis

In recounting a wide variety of odd phenomena, Fort largely disregards his previous teleportation theory, or at least incorporates him into his new thesis. Rather than a vague "Cosmic joker", as he postulated in his earlier books, the responsibility for these occurrences are freak powers that occur in the human mind, that cannot be naturally developed, but are there, Fort feels, as a sort of throwback to primeval times.

Fort discusses many topics he had touched on before, though generally in more detail than in his other works - poltergeists, spontaneous human combustion, animal mutilations, vampires, and ghosts - along with many supposed cases of psychokinesis and ability to control one's surroundings. His thesis is that in primeval times, man needed such extraordinary powers in order to survive in the wilderness, and that all people can potentially develop these powers if they literally put their mind to it. He also explores alleged cases of witchcraft and murder by mental suggestion, compiling an impressive list of "occult criminology" (people apparently being murdered under peculiar or unexplainable circumstances) in support. He also attacks the general sense of taboo which he feels prevents wild talents from being accepted, and suggests that such "talents" would become acceptable if science would deem them as such.

Fort also plays around with the idea that humans are able to transform into animals at will, citing a number of cases of werewolves and other similar creatures such as gorillas and hyenas. He also casually (and quite humorously) dismisses, in one chapter, reports of a talking dog that "disappeared in a thin, greenish vapor", because, in his view, it is an extraordinary event, and he only deals with quite ordinary ones.

Fort also briefly mentions a purported psychic occurrence that happened to him and his family, where he imagined a picture frame in his house falling from the wall, and of course it happened. He regards this with his usual tongue-in-cheek manner, and it is doubtful (as usual) that he seriously believes what he is saying.

This book is available as part of Dover Publications' collection of The Complete Works of Charles Fort.

the parable of wild talents!

This is Wild Talents! Matt, Alicat, Tara and Eliza (pics of Eliza are coming!!)
We play in my basement right now, but these photos are in Matt's basement. Our producer, Shamus, is a boxer. Not a fighter, but a dog. I'll try to figure out how to post songs later. I don't feel up to the challenge right now!

apple cookies!

NGREDIENTS (Nutrition)

* 3/4 cup packed brown sugar
* 1/2 cup butter, softened
* 2 cups rolled oats
* 2 teaspoons ground cinnamon
* 1/2 teaspoon salt
* 1/2 cup chopped walnuts
* 2 eggs
* 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
* 1 cup all-purpose flour
* 1/2 teaspoon baking soda
* 1 apple - peeled, cored and shredded
* 1/2 cup confectioners' sugar
* 1 tablespoon milk

I made these apple cookies yesterday! They are simple and soooo good! today, i will make them and substitute bananas for the eggs and cut the sugar down some. I also omitted the walnuts. I would also like to try them with golden raisins, mostly because we have boxes of them that the kids won't eat.
Yesterday, I started the paper clay portions of my pumpkins. I guess I haven't posted about this project yet, but I have pictures I will put up later today. I LOVE paper pulp clay!!!

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

your song


Couldn't even tell her own husband about her faith in Jesus...she waited until he was going to be crucified until she spoke up! Even then, her message seems elusive and had I been her husband, I don't know that it would have spoken to me, either. Am I afraid to tell my husband of my faith in Jesus? not all the time, but not all the time, either. Now, the it a different story? Sometimes...I feel safe to write about him on my blog or to tell my friends who also Believe, but what about when it is uncomfortable? what about when it isn't taken well? what about to strangers? then do I clam up and speak out of the side of my mouth? of course I do! I do not like it when I feel uncomfortable! I would tell you about the UFO I saw when I was 8 or about how I believe there are people blessed with "unnatural" gifts, I will tell you about the few cases of documented spontaneous combustion, but tell you about how Jesus saved my life and died for me? probably won't go may feel uncomfortable, too! Today, can I change my ways and speak the truth everywhere I go? Can I talk about music and love and art and not say Jesus name? How can I when my gifts came from God! How can I pick up a brush and spread beauty when I am not willing to say how it came about?! I cannot. So I must change my ways, I must talk about it, about Jesus, about God, about how he changed me from a wicked junkie into a loving woman of God. Here we go....

the knife

I am so in love with this! visually and audiolly!!!

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

but this cover is pretty good, too!!!

my friend says this is the best REM song...

...he may be right.


today is a great day! yesterdy was, too! and, by the way, Sunday was also pretty great. I'm jealous of myself sometimes that I get to have so much fun!!

Heard the 2 new radiohead tracks, mindblowing, i was speechless(almost)- thank you, IK!! you make me smile with your love for music! I spent some time with some friends hearing new tunes, going new places, pouring my heart out onto tabletops and eating delicious food! the ears become open when my heart & my mind open, too! I can be so happy sitting on a wooden floor, just listening...crickets fill the holes..

I'm like ET- my heartlight glows! singing this one too many times with my mom around proved to be a bad move..not everybody loves neil diamond like i do!

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Monday, August 17, 2009

and how!!

today is a brand new day!
Here's what Hannah thanked god for this morning...
the beautiful day
our family
her brother
going to mamaw's for the day!
Here's what i thanked god for today...
our beautiful family
a sunny day
a new job prospect
new friends
Hannah knowing god without question
being sober today, yesterday, all the days!

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

i twist it up real fine

Here is where I turn into a 12 year old? no, I just like what i like and i don't care what that brings. :) This looks AMAZING! and i can't wait for November yo see it the very first night and then possibly break my own record of how many times i see a movie in the theater. shape shifters are cool. I love Avatar!

So, back to my life in the real world, which also feels rather movie-esque at times, here's the skinny...I was going to go to see rarariot in september with loohoo and dan for their birthdays, but now I am going on vacation!! to Emerald Isle! my nephew is coming home from Iraq and we are going to meet the freedom bus and welcome him home!! I can't wait to see him! here's the movie comparison...wait for it...doug's (my nephew) transformation from high school football player to Marine is very similar in my twisted mind to Jacob going from awkward teenager to teen werewolf. that's one of the reasons i love new moon so much! :)

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

my birthday is funner than...

so, I realized this week that I have awesome friends- many, many awesome friends! All different kinds of friends! I am so in love with all of them! Each in different ways, each for their beautiful qualities and quirks! With each friend comes a gift to start my life a new and to give back to each friend what has been so freely and lovingly given to me- the heart, the trust, the honesty, the forgiveness, the patience, tolerance and kindness that every living thing deserves. Even me, especially you. As I go about my day, if I can be helpful, if I can behave as Jesus does, if I can stay alive in the moment without looking too far ahead, if I can be the woman God wants me to be, or at least somewhat close, I will continue to have a bounty of loving friends. And they will have one, too.
Monday night, my friends gathered and one said faith, hope and love and the greatest of these is love and the room was full of all three and I had to sit in takes the breath from me. I love Monday nights, I love being surrounded by love, I love my home and the love it fills up with each and every day. My life is amazing!

Saturday, August 1, 2009

i am more in love with this everday

as the rain fell....

seeing a deer in a field on the side of reed hartman highway struck me tragic..not that it seemed in danger, but more that it seemed lost and so out of made me feel sad to be human.i was thinking how we'd destroyed our big, beautiful world with excess and greed. i couldn't help myself, i was thinking how our only hope was a new generation of pe ople who did care and ty to make a difference, doing whatever it is i can less of a consumer, ride my bike more, recycle everything. keep fighting to make the world better for my children.
then i got happy as i leaned my head back, counting clouds, watching hannah squeal in delight thru the sideview mirror. the wind whipped thru my hair. the jeep lurched a little, bouncing along at a medium pace, headed to our house. the rain took me by surprise! we pulled under an overhang at one of the many buildings, mdh had spotted it before i did. we worked quickly to pull up the soft top and secure it in place. as we pulled back out into the downpour, i knew the kids were safe and i felt good.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

how the stars feel

there are so many things i love today....
i am listening to the horrors, which i just got yesterday. i love i! it reminds me of how much i love joy division! :) also, enlou...5 songs is not enough, but it has to do and it stereo in my car doesn't comply unless a cd is brand new and not a copy, so Enlou is perfect! I do not love recording that much, but i love the idea of it!! i love Matt's guitars and the sounds that come out of them! i love Jen's scientific mind! i love reading and falling into a book i can't put down! i love meeeting new friends! i love safety nets and realizing they weren't there to begin with. i love seeing smiling faces when i wake in the morning...i love bright eyes, i love paintbrushes, i love it when an old friend picks me up to hug me and spin me in circles and especially when they sat i love you!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

and how!

sounds like big black with pretty instead of screamy...i am so in love with this today!
and hannah chasing meely in circles...and dogs getting baths,,,and swimming!!

Monday, June 22, 2009

This is Will. He is the most amazing person I have ever met! He is witty, super funny, well read and smart. He likes to draw and sing and dance! He is an awesome dancer! He says nice things to his little sister and kisses her every night. He loves to play video games and wants to design them when he grows up! He wants to play the drums! I love him more than the whole world combined and I miss him this week while he is on vacation in Central City, Kentucky. I can't wait to see him when he comes home! I can't wait to read books with him and swim and ride bikes and go get ice cream and play lazer tag! It will be awesome!!

Saturday, June 20, 2009

I just have to write about my wonderful 2 days....wonderful because we started a new meeting on Friday night at St elizabeth in Norwood..not only is the place beautiful and everyone loved the meeting, it's so good to look around a room and know how much love is there! Also, Will came with us, which is awesome! He hung in til 11, then fell out on us! He left this morning to go to his Dad's house for a week! I already miss him, but I know he will have fun! Totally fighting the urge to call i lay in bed, thinking of him...I know how my mom feels now. Everyday, you love them all you can and hope God takes care of them and protects them, but I have no control and I just have to stay in this very moment and be a good mom...

Thursday, June 18, 2009

things i fell in love with just today...

empire of the sun ,cos i just got the whole album, so my ipod, too, cos i finally know how to use it correctly...kind of!
hannah pretending she is a puppy, barking and wanting me to sniff her and kiss her by licking her
my ex & I being friends again & being friends with his wife...
being in a long distance book reading Everything is illuminated and blood meridian by cormac's not all the pretty horses, but i'm still drawn to it....
charles fort, who i have been calling charles roth for whatever reaon. I came up with tim roth doing a mean charles starkweather in "murder in the heartland" and combining those two names perhaps.....
"dancing queen" by abba, playing loudly in my kitchen while hannah & i dance and sing and will watched on, laughing
darth vader voice changer!!!! and having 2 so I get to play, too!
vincent dinafrio
new order
having good friends come home...
painting space ships, layered and majestic!
the possibilities of all that lies ahead...
cos you don't know the power of the dark side can only be countered with...
shooofly, don't bother me, shoofly, don't bother me!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Today, Hannah naps and I am time. I can do whatever I want to and instead, I am really doing absolutely nothing. All of the things I thought about doing involve me learning or creating or expending energy. Today, I just want to rest. I'm much too young to feel this damn old...:)

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

when I lived on Lee Street in covington in 1996, I painted on a lot of found objects. This was painted on an old piece of wood 3'X4' and was a gift for my friend, Shelly!

i fall in love...

....everyday with something new! Luckily, my life continues to get better & I continue to grow...
here's what I fell in love with today. Phoenix! You can listen to it right now, if you are reading this! Except I'm pretty convinced not a single person on earth is because I have no idea how to add it to my myspace or FB pages. Anyhoo....

I also love Passion Pit, which I picked up at Shake It! Records , which I also love! I can't find Empire of the Sun, so I listen to it online..I also got DustySpringfield LP from Joseph Beth Booksellers!! (a little plug, since I work there!) They have a great new selection of vinyl! A lot of older jazz & indie, all the Pixies on vinyl! All at very good prices, even if you don't get a discount!:)

I bought some older stff, since I am replacing my vast cd collection that burnt up in my car 2 years ago. The empty cases sit in my basement and each week, I try to replace something. The Smiths the queen is dead and oh my god it's the flaming lips, OTR's first album, which I am playing the bajezus out of! Much to my families chagrin! Oh, and the Pain Teens, who I adore! Bliss Blood & Kat from Babes in Toyland are prob'ly my 2 fav female vocalists of allllll time!

I can't wait to play tomorrow night! Matt wrote the most amazing song and the lyrics are cool as heck! It sounds really good! One of those songs where he hands me the lyrics, he starts playing and the stars fall outta my eyes and into the vocals, it's magic and works right away, like snowflakes, like teardrops, natural, unforced and a handhold all at the same time! Love!

MDH got a new present- the new steve earle, which we will be enjoying over dinner tonight. Our kids are overexposed- today Hannah & will watched Odd Nosdam on youtube and the mayhem ensued! she is now obsessed with a naked baby having a baby with wings....Will is excited about the prospect of seeing the Poms play this summeron the square! I have to admit, I'm pretty excited myself! monday night with Ted Leo & the Pharmacists! It's gonna rock!

I told you, my life keeps getting better and better....

Friday, May 22, 2009

today, will was sick and had to go to the doctor so I did absolutely everything he & I have been wanting to do...we went to St, Teresa's Textile Trove, which is AWESOME! Then we went to Shake It! I got some cd's, The Smiths "louder than bombs", Live FlamingLips & PassionPit. He got a mini ninja and a new visa cash card to up something his Roblox account, I dunno, you build little block guys, it's pretty cool!

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

the boats are blown to pieces by long, plastic straws & tiny windpipe bursts
a raingutter regatta
we all win! we all lose!

Saturday, May 16, 2009

I was trying to figure out how to post this wickedcool video of tom waits on an old talk show, but I am so obviously upload/download challenged....I'm writing a song tonight about Charles Roth's work on Wild Talents and hopefully we'll put it all together tomorrow night at practice...looking forward to having a practice space!

I bought a laptop today for $50 and it is dreamy to sit on my bed and watch SNL while I am typing this. Weird, but cool!!!!

My friends are so pretty and I am so crazy about them all! I feel like the luckiest girl in the world tonight! I went to the speckled bird cafe for breakfast this morning with William. It rocked! Best cupcakes EVER and I had one last night and one this morning...

Saturday, May 9, 2009

I'm having some difficulty figuring out a couple of things..
how to add other people's blogs to my own page as I have seen on other blogs I follow. And explaining to the important people in my life why I would have a blog and not share it.

The first seems easy enough to solve- I ask someone for help.

The other- well, I just started this to have a place to ramble when I wanna, and seeing how someone I live with hears me ramble on far too often all ready, I figured I would spare them the mundane prospect of also reading said rambles.

Here comes the guilt- do I have a secret worth sharing with the world and not him?
Obvious answer is of course not. Not so obvious answer, do I wish I did? Sometimes. Like a body double, I ride in the front seat through McDonald's Drive Thru and reluctantly get food from a corporation I both love and hate. I think about my life as I stare out the window at the Starbucks my children are all too familiar with on our way back from Old Navy and think to myself...I thought it may be different. I thought we'd live in an urban neighborhood and not 2 minutes from Kenwood Towne Center. I used to think I would never shop there, now I love to.

to be continued.....


Friday, May 8, 2009

is spontaneous combustion simply an angry firestarter?
That's my theory! Also, would it be the mother or the daughter and how would you prove which it was? or both?

Is Darth Maul truly that dark that he doesn't need to use words or is he simple?

If I committed to writing a one woman show and actually performed it, I'm quite certain both of those burning subjects would be addressed, as well as many others.
Such Flash Gordon's theme song by Queen really worthy of a whole dance routine with costumes and a floor plan layout for an entire marching band with flag corp?
Have I really discovered Darth Maul's long lost diary? Would I be willing to share the contents of it?
Is a keyboard solo medley music or torture? Would it sound better beginning with "pressure" by Billy Joel or "jump" by van halen? Is the proper ending song "home sweet home" by Motley Crue or would that fit better in the middle? Do I spend countless minutes thinking about this kind of stuff? Is it only minutes because my attention span is that of a flea?

Why don't I tell anyone I have a blog? Because they might steal my dance moves!

Saturday, April 25, 2009

dying is fine

So when I wake up on a saturday
and I've slept as long as I can sleep
I think about the day ahead.
It's a day I say goodbye to an old friend.
he used to go to sleep in painted houses & dirty old hotels,
we'd run in parks, we'd drink & laugh,
he told me funny stories and we talked about our lack of will,
our lack of God, our tumble down hills
he lived in castles, he sat upon thrones
bugs crawling thru our hair, sloppy drunk kisses mean nothing
but today, he burns and hearts break
life fades out at a slow pace
you watch like a dream where you're falling & can't scream
if you could, it wouldn't stop it anyway
no matter how you love, it's not enough to
save someone from himself
he just keeps falling down
like a puppet with broken strings
when Tom Waits writes your eulogy
long before you've ever gone
Burroughs lasted 80 years
but he wasn't the lucky one

Thursday, April 23, 2009

i get frustrated...

...with my happiness & I feel like I haven't earned it or don't really deserve it. That is defeating at times, but today, it feels like maybe I am just not used to my life going well and feeling so happy! That I still am not used to being able to lay my head down at night saying "man, that was a good day!" or I actually accomplished what I wanted to accomplish and feel satisfied. I get to do all of these things I love everyday, from the time I wake up in the morning until the time I go to bed at night. I love waking up to a little bit of silence, then have a tumble through children waking and a house alive with chaotic get readys and here we gos! Dogs eating, kittys meowing, blue fish circling and mdh makes coffee, there are teeth to be brushed and hair to be combed, then we are off! The day has begun! I enjoy my job, I enjoy being with people.

I'm thinking of Bree tonight.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

lovely osngs tonight

two new songs tonight- one "as the snow fell", the other I can't remember the name of right now, but super cool and I love my band!

Saturday, April 18, 2009

as the snow fell

as the snow fell, she smiled and said to him

"if you eat even one snowflake this year, our whole world will
fall apart."

he said "we're already so far apart."

"fall apart" she said.

& he said "I did."